slight disappointment

honestly, not being selected was a tad disappointing.

I admit I made several mistakes in the last few matches of the season, but I was quite sure I played relatively well in the first two matches. I gave my all, fought, and most importantly, tried, albeit the defeats.

I try so hard to make an impression. But now I know, I shouldnt do it for the sake of maintaining that impression of myself. I should do it for myself and the team, not him.

He chose the best players to try it out, and I encourage all of them to go for it.

I sound like I'm grumbling and moaning at my loss right? I am indeed, but I'm doing it like how a cat will like its healed wounds (what's left is a scar). I have a few regrets, and it's quite annoying to even be thinking about them now that season was over since so long ago.

This post is merely a note about how I feel a little disappointed with myself for my past mistakes and a reminder to myself about who and what I should be working hard for.