Pahang

Pahang

Be open,

Be nice to the maidens.

Start observing,

Even when you're playing.

Discard pre-judgements,

Allow joyful increments.

Show your concern,

Without discern.

Share your humour,

Don't do it in a murmur.

Enjoy learning new stuff,

Like a language that's tough.

Share your opinions with those

Whom you enjoy being with most.

But.

I regret not knowing her better,

Because that's what really matters.

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slight disappointment

honestly, not being selected was a tad disappointing.

I admit I made several mistakes in the last few matches of the season, but I was quite sure I played relatively well in the first two matches. I gave my all, fought, and most importantly, tried, albeit the defeats.

I try so hard to make an impression. But now I know, I shouldnt do it for the sake of maintaining that impression of myself. I should do it for myself and the team, not him.

He chose the best players to try it out, and I encourage all of them to go for it.

I sound like I'm grumbling and moaning at my loss right? I am indeed, but I'm doing it like how a cat will like its healed wounds (what's left is a scar). I have a few regrets, and it's quite annoying to even be thinking about them now that season was over since so long ago.

This post is merely a note about how I feel a little disappointed with myself for my past mistakes and a reminder to myself about who and what I should be working hard for.

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5/4/2010

I was naive.

Everyone gets hurt when a family is troubled by problems.

Nobody is left out.

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4/4/2010

The victims of all family problems are the children.

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31st March 2010

Not one of my favourite days, 31st March.

Then again, not many people enjoyed this last day of the month.

She got upset she didn't get into council, and so were many other close friends.

I wanted to be there. I regretted not being there. Hold on, I hope I was wanted?

But no, it's not going to be about my selfishness today.

I was hoping today was tomorrow, so we can laugh at how bad a joke it is.

But clearly, April Fool's comes late.

We all know it aint a joke, but it's...just too bad.

I've never seen strongmen break down like that.

A blessing that I didnt get to witness the unfortunate emotional floods.

A misfortune that I didnt get to lend my ear, to those who yearned.

An irony it is at how I cannot decide whether to thank god for missing the release of the results. Or not.

I hope I can bring tomorrow to today. Or switch tomorrow for today. Or just throw today altogether. Because not everyone laughed today.

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We Played Our Guts Out, And You Know It.

It's really difficult to accept reality. But that is the tough truth.

We started with tremendously low self-esteem. We didn't trust ourselves. Neither did we trust our own teammates. We may have lots of faith in ourselves, but we all realised that isnt enough to make a football team. We thought individuals are the sole requirements to carry a team. We thought as long as we go for trainings, we are playing awesome soccer.

But then, today, we proved ourselves.

We may not have won against IJC or SAJC. Some say it's bad luck, some say we didn't take all of our chances well. The match against SAJC is one I will never forget. I don't say this often, which means that when I say it, it's that important and memorable. Every single individual in the team upholded their respective responsibility. Every single individual gave themselves to the team. Every single individual out there wanted to prove themselves, and they did, really. We threw our bodies at the ball. We fought like warriors.

Definitely, it's a difficult loss to swallow. Nevertheless, we walked out of the SAJC field as winners. We went in as the underdogs, expected to lose to the strong SAJC players. We knew in terms of game experience, talent and technical experience, our opponents were much much ahead of us. I believed everyone was afraid, because so much was at stake, and the result seemed determined even before the match was played. But we showed that No One Is Here By Chance. It was a tough match to play, but we excelled.

Before I wrote this post, I read Kaiwen's genuine expressive note. It was a note of reflection, not only for himself, but definitely also for the entire hwachong soccer team (I believe). It is indeed true that some of the players got really emotional after the match, like kaiwen and olivier, because they have given their all and yet, the results do not reflect their diligence and determination. I salute these people. I admire them for their spirit. I am proud to be their teammate.

I got really disappointed that we didnt get anything out of the match. Everyone was. Some cried. Some sat alone contemplating. Some were staring into blank space. But as emotional as I may be, I controlled myself. I understood that we gave everything we had to secure at least a point. It was not a bad match; in fact, it was the best match ever played. I want to keep my hopes high. I want to remain confident that this year will be the year that the hwachong soccer team finally gets past to the next round.

Hence, I lifted my head up. And urged everyone else to lift theirs as well.

Because for all you know, nothing is over.

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25th March

It's a rojak of emotions.

I know what's my problem.
When I have the chance, I get distracted easily and forgo the opportunity way too sloppily.
When I create my own chances, I tend to think no further than that moment itself.

When I dont have the chance, I am worried of creating them.

When I am rejected of the chance, I falter and and become dejected.

The problem is, I know my problems too well.

As ridiculous as this may sound, understanding myself too well is a weakness.

I'm going to make things change. For myself.

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Whatever's said below the asterisk has completely nothing to do with what's said above it.

I have a crucial soccer match tomorrow, and to be honest, I am afraid. Afraid because I was disappointed. Disappointed because I was afraid. You see, it's a helluva vicious fking cycle. I swear I felt intimidated. I swear I felt scared. I swear I felt ball-less. I swear I didn't feel like a man at all. I swear I was being a coward.

But I swear I am going to get over all these negativity.

I'm going to do my part well.

I'm going to fulfill my individual responsibility.

I'm going to remind myself that as long as I uphold my responsibilities, I have done a good job.

I'm going to remember that I defend like a warrior. And that's all I need to do, before anything.

I'm going to keep in mind that my responsibilities to the team come first, before anything.

I'm going to be a motivation for myself, and for my team.

I'm going to do well.

I will do well.

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Compression

Wei Lun:

Wei Lun is too good to be true.

Fang:

Too good to be true

Too good for her too

Wei Lun:

Please don't make me feel like poo.

Fang:

The Rejection of you is a loss she will rue
That you cant be topped, she has no clue

Wei Lun:

Stop it, you're wrong 'cause that jerk's just a tool

To make me look like a fool

Fang:

Oh. The one she wants is you.

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12th March 2010

Charade

How incredulous this may sound,

This words are about something round.

Fret not, it's not about your size

Or anything that can entice.

(I can give you clues.

But first, you'll have to beg me to break the rules.

Geez, alright I don't want this to be something I rue,

In case you end up getting the blues.)

***

Without me, you know you'll feel deflated;

With me, you can't wait to be INFLATED.

Without you, I'll be as empty as air;

Without you, we can't bounce like a pair.

My softness makes you hard.

But trust me, I could be just some fart.

Your hot-ness from all the rubbing makes me rise.

(It'll still happen even in a Levi's)

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My description skills look raw,

But really, I am talking about a basketball.

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8 Rules on How to Stay Cool in School

Number 1 rule to stay cool: Don't be jealous.

Even if you're feeling jealous, don't show it. Bottle it up. Go back home and take it out on your pillow or on your blog. Keep your cool in front of her. Remember, girls can't stand guys who get jealous.

Number 2 rule to stay cool: Don't be possessive.

She does not belong to you. She belongs to herself. And she's a servant to no one except for herself. She has the right to do whatever she wants. So, don't try to be an asshole all the time. Don't think that she rightfully belongs to you and no one else.

Number 3 rule to stay cool: Guys, cut down on the gossips.

Guys, if you wanna be cool, you've got to follow one simple rule: don't gossip about others, even though it is an inconceivably enjoyable sport. It is morally illegal and does not make you look good. Gossiping will just show that you are a jerk who bitches about people all the time but does not dare to confront that particular victim of your criticisms.

Number 4 rule to stay cool: Girls, stop trying to act like sluts in front of the guys.

Girls, we all know the female gender are slightly more attractive than the other sex because of certain humps, but this does not mean that you should go around shaking your booty in front of testosterone-raging jocks. The sight of it is equivalent to what people watch on Animal Planet when humans observe how baboons shake their flesh to attract the opposite sex.

Number 5 rule to stay cool: Be funny, not sarcastic.

The way to penetrate into the core of a girl's heart is to use humour. It works all the time. Be funny, and tease the girl. But please, you should know that humour is not the same as sarcasm. Excessive usage of sarcasm can irritate people. And trust me, you don't want to get into people's bad books during the first term of your senior years. Sarcasm works well sometimes, but be discreet.

Number 6 rule to stay cool: When you can't do it, admit it.

We all hate stubborn people who insist of their capability despite the fact that they have zero potential. If you realise that you suck at a certain something, say it. Don't be aggressive when people criticise your performance. SMILE. And take it all in. Use humour to cover your embarrassment up. Let your imagination run wild.

Number 7 rule to stay cool: Learn to say 'no'. But compensate for your rejection.

We all want to be nice. But the truth is, you can't be nice to everyone and everything. Saying no is an essential part of growing up. Of course, it's sorta mean to reject others, but you have to know that sometimes you just can't help it, due to certain circumstances. But, if you want to feel less guilty and less like a jerk, make compensations. Like you can help out the person in other ways or just buy gifts for them. Essentially you have to find your own way of licking the other party's wound.

Number 8 rule to stay cool: Be decisive.

Decisiveness is one of the key markers of your character. Learn to make decisions fast. If you take too long, you may just miss out on your chances and what's worse, appear to be one who takes too long to choose over pizza or pasta. If you are given a range of choices, choose fast (but choose wisely). Moreover, you wouldn't want to drag too long because the more you think about it, the more anxious you will get, and the possibility of not approaching the girl increases. There's a reason why the slogans of Nike and Adidas are crafted out like they are. You have to "Just Do It" and think that "Impossible is Nothing".

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